Philip's Tunnel to Nowhere 3

I’m less than a week away from officially conceding defeat in yet another chapter in my life. So far defeat seems to be the greatest unifying theme about me. I’m trying very very hard not to spiral down into yet another cycle of despondency. I keep reminding myself that as an ostensible Christian I’m to cherish the myth that God has amazing things in store for my life around the next corner. I’m thoroughly convinced that’s little more than self-deception, but maybe it’s helpful self-deception so that I can keep plowing through.